Take Stock

Disclaimer- if you haven’t read my blog titled “Where the f*ck does a passion come from”, go and read it. It’s only quick.

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I wrote this blog a few weeks ago but just haven’t posted it.

This isn’t so much of a blog like others have been. It’s more of an update. An explanation and a grasp on the dreams and things I have always wanted to do but never truly took ownership of.

Like a journal entry.

Now is the time. For me and for you.

I went to bed last night feeling, for the first time in my life, a sense of energy and ‘passion’ that I haven’t ever felt before. I’ve steadily felt this more and more since I got back from my month in Europe, on the 14th of September.

It was the first time I’ve ever gone to bed feeling happy and fulfilled in a deeper sense. Not just happy with what I had done in the day, or because I saw a pretty girl and we smiled at each other, or because I had a great workout.

Happy as in:

Holy Shit. I would be happy to do this for the rest of my life.

That’s a bold statement.

Especially from a 19-year-old.

Especially one that has a notorious reputation with himself for starting projects then abandoning them. For getting excited about a notion, idea or vision and then losing it a few days later, picking it up a few weeks later, then not.

A boy that felt isolated and excluded from the seemingly driven, hustling, on track community of Entrepreneurs and innovators that he surrounded himself with on social media. These people who always seem so “passionate”, so energetic and so in love with what they do.

He felt almost betrayed by the image that is projected onto us non-stop nowadays. A boy who felt that if he wasn't leaping out of bed in the morning to gloriously go and crush 18 hours of work on his ‘passion’, then we aren’t living the right life.

I want to try to show you how to recognise which path you’re meant to be going down. Purely based on what I have found, it’s another bold claim I know. But there is a trigger that I was missing for years, and likely many others are as well.

As I mentioned in the last blog, I had only very recently come to the realisation and acceptance that I am moving in a direction that I have always admired from a distance and sort of thought of as a distant gleam.

Many times, when I saw a funny and amazing Youtuber or content creator I thought to myself;

“Shit, that would be so good to be able to do for a job.

Imagine doing that for a job.

That would literally be a dream career for me.

I wish…”

YouTubers such as Zac Perna, Ben Gerrans, Johnny FPV and Yes Theory always provoked this sense of longing.

Not just Youtubers but other people such as social media influencers, people who create amazing content purely around their passions, interests and decisions. I am not sure whether that is exactly what I want to do, but its a direction to head in.

But I never acted, just played with the notion.

Then, last week, I picked up Gary Vee’s 2018 book, Crushing It!

And holy shit, my mind came alive. It showed that anyone can become an expert and high-level content creator in their field, no matter where they are starting from, what field, what platform. And showed exactly how to.

This influx of inspiration and clarity into my mind also revealed to me one core fact that had been hiding in plain sight the whole time. I was looking externally for a brand, for something I could latch onto and try to mould and make mine. But the brand I needed was in me the whole time. It was the definition of the relationship with my best friend in England.

I have alluded to it in various blogs, the notion of an Aspirer. It’s literally tattooed on my arm. The point is that I realised that I had been looking outward for something to get into as a means of becoming well-known, when what really mattered was the proper intent of sharing my own story and experiences to uplift and inspire others and create a community. If you are still reading, thank you so much.

In the meantime, keep grinding away at whatever project or passion you have. Even if it’s just an interest at the moment because that’s where I am at.

1. Identify your interests.

2. Take a moment to reflect, away from your phone, with some quiet or background music. I would recommend writing with an actual pen and paper because the physical connection between your hand, pen and brain stimulates thought and creativity.

3. Take stock of your life: what hobbies do you have?

4. What are you interested in?

5. What cool Instagram accounts do you follow that you genuinely are interested in?

6. Who do you look at and think, damn… that would be a dream?

Write it all down. Then pick out the interests and hobbies that you would be willing to put significant or more time into developing. Then go out and do something to develop, practice or learn something about it.

Do something every day to progress towards mastering it.

Personally, my interests were: creating videos and content, blogging, vlogging, fitness, learning new things.

It’s a lot, but I’m taking it bit by bit and figuring out a way to improve at them all and link them all to create one unified personal brand for myself.

This recent sense of direction I have given myself and realised has created a fun purpose to look forward to every day, where beforehand I felt sorta silly for just listening to all this business stuff but not actually having a side hustle or proper hobby.

I hope this has helped. Even if it was only just one word. I hope you find your interest and your ‘Aha!’ moment. All you have to do is look and try new things. TRY NEW THINGS. Don’t be afraid to step out of your shell, instead, fucking discard the whole shell. You’ll feel alive like never before.

Keep crushing, keep dreaming and keep Aspiring.

Misha, N.Y.A.

Something Small

When did you start running?

From your heart

You were full of abundance

Talent, potential, through your blood’n

Your dreams glistening and calling opportunity

Now it feels like your life is a euology